no one says life is ever fair.

i'm falling apart. literally.

judging from things happening around me these few days/weeks,

it isnt fair.

why me? WHY ME?

WHY OF ALL PEOPLE TURNS OUT TO BE ME?

i tried so hard keeping myself away from troubles, but troubles find me.

they eventually FOUND me.

i looked at myself in the mirror, asking myself WHY?

and i didnt seem to get the answer.

and sometimes, i looked at my own reflection, i saw another person who looked exactly like me.

it IS me, but.. it doesnt seem to be like me anymore.

i thought this year would REALLY turns out to be different and good.

but i was wrong. again.

it turns out to be different and bad.

i really dont wish to share the reasons why i 'm being like this to anyone else for now.

it doesnt seem to be the right time for me to tell.

it's only the half. but it wasnt full.

where are you when i needed you now?

i felt like i held on to you too much.

i'm sorry for bugging you all these while.

i wish you were right here beside me.

IF ONLY, YOU HOLD ME CLOSE TO YOU, LOOKED AT ME IN THE EYES WITH LOVE AND CARE, AND TELL ME EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE OKAY.

forever and always.

friday 29.1.2010

hmmmm, today is one of the best day i ever had in the month of january.

and ohh. my day and nights were FULLY occupied with homeworks till i didnt really had enough time to have a good night rest. but. it's 4s3's lucky day. or the SECOND lucky day.

we dont have much homeworks to do.

ONLY one. bugger. it's ADDMATHS.

seriously, addmaths is driving me CRAZY.

i could stare at ONE particular question for hours if i must.

i dont know how to solve them.

SAD.

and we had merentas desa. or so called merentas desa.

more like MERENTAS SEKOLAH. OR PADANG.

it's soo lame.

and my heart was accelerating fast. and both of my legs got numb right after the finishing line.

gaaahhh. leg cramp.

hmmm, enough of my boring grandmother story.

the highlight of this post is...

KEANMUN CAME BACK TO SCHOOL. FOR ME (:

awwwwhhh. i was EXTREMELY HAPPY and EXCITED when she appeared all the sudden while we had boardmeeting.

i was first feeling VERY DOWN, cause i thought 'SOMEONE' gonna FONGFEIKEI on me judging by the time.

but then, i was wrong. VERY WRONG. (:

then, something happened. was feeling soo mad and disappointed at someone else.

but then, keanmun lended her ears and shoulders to me. and she cheered me up.

THANKS DEAR.

i dont think i would be okay if you werent there right when i needed you the most <3

aint it cute? i got it specially for her. (:

and it's BLUE! XD

thank you for being there for me when i needed you the most.
your kind words,your love and your sweetest smile were the ones that made me feel better.
love yea. <3

i cant believe you accused me of things i didnt do. i was really there, i swear.

i can see she didnt really believed of what i said when i told her i was there.

i was dissapointed when i found out it was you.

but, this is what i heard from others.

maybe it's true, maybe it's not.

but for whatever things you did to me,

i'll FORGIVE and FORGET.

cause you're my friend.

and you'll still be always be my friend (:

bear with my complaints.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

*SCREAM OUT LOUD*

i realised i never had a EARLY goodnight sleep this whole week.

been occupied myself with STACKS OF HOMEWORKS! ==

my mum had been sending me off to bed everynight, eventhought my homeworks are NOT done.

aikssss..

soo stressing laaa..

i'm gonna go crazzyyyyy VERY VERY VERY SOON..
i feel like banging my head on the wall. FOR REAL!

and also, stayed back almost everyday.

wth?

and.. i've been VERY down these days.

i've been crying to myself to sleep at night at times..

i'm just feeling VERY sad.

and, due to these circumstances,

i've not taken care of myself.

and i ended having *cough* COUGH *cough*

SORETHROAT, and continuously SNEEZES!

aiks. my thoat is aching.

stupid sickness.. GAHHHHHHHHH. >.<

anyway, we had raptai installation today.

and we skipped the whole lessons before recess.

the teachers complaint that we sang TERRIBLELY! ==

ughhhh. i hate it when they complaint.

they even suggested us to cancel if we dont sing properly. geeeeezzz..

"WAY TO GO FOR SUPPORTING US MORE".

hmmmm :(

better get back drowing myself into the sea of homeworks.

or else, i dont need to sleep for tonight even it's a FRIDAY NIGHT.

pfffft. saturday= SCHOOL. DING DONG BETUL!.

i wonder if i shud skipped my tuition class for tomorrow.

i really am not feeeling welll :'(

pictures from sunday's outing.

few pieces of shirts my mum bought for me.

i hardly begged my mum to get them for me. LITERALLY! (:

THANK YOU MUMMY! <3

these clothes are sooo COSTLY! sadly to say, i didnt get them as they're so expensive.but the clothes i tried on were SO NICEEEE! but COSTLY! sad case! >.<

alright now. back to the FINISH-THE-HOMEWORK mission now! CHEERIO! (:

-out-

maybe today's my lucky day!

now, at least i have the mood to blog..

feeling VERY moody these few dayss..

anyway, today's sunday. less than 2 hours more,

it's a SCHOOL DAY, again.! ==

is it me or the day's just passing SUPERLY FAST?

yesterday was ONLY SATURDAY,

and yet, i'm still not ready to go to school yet for tomorrow..

needless to say, i'm freaking exhausted.

aikssss..

went out for the whole afternoon and evening.

first went to parade.

bought some clothes (:

mummy allows..

i hardly begged my mum to buy me clothes today!

*pictures will be uploaded the NEXT post*

then, headed to jusco at about 4pm.

bumped into JIEBON and family!

then, at 5.30pm, watched THE SPY NEXT DOOR.

YOU GUYS should watch.

i RECOMMEND you to watch.

the show is SO HILARIOUS.

i laughed the entirely show.

and.. the little girl is soo ubberly adorable (:

wheeeeee (: